“I have been chubby since I was a little girl, it was brought to my notice in grade two. Fat-shaming was persistent from then till my adulthood. The thing is it’s not just an appearance issue, as a child I had to develop weird defense mechanisms to keep me going because it’s not just school but your friends outside of school AND family. I would shame myself, hate myself, then started gaining more weight to rebel which in-turn worked against me,” Karthika said in her note.
The actress also mentioned the unhealthy beauty standards an industry she joined in had and added that it was beyond limits for her to handle. “Then I joined an industry known for unhealthy beauty standards! The FAT SHAMING AND SEXUALISATION started on a much much MUCH larger level than I could handle. My body and I have been in a constant state of war with each other for a very very long time and I was getting tired, I couldn’t convince the world to accept me as I am, I couldn’t accept myself either so I started out with fad diets – Low Carb, excessive exercising, Keto, Juice-ing – you name it,” she added.
“NOTHING WOULD STICK. Why? Because I hated my body and I was doing all of these things because I hated it soo much, I wanted it to stop existing & become something else, something against my adult understanding of what is healthy, beautiful, and fit. I had to fix my relationship with food, with my body, my mind, and my belief systems. I needed something sustainable, something to replace all this unnecessary bullshit standards and dialogues around me. I wanted to be an authentic version of me that I would love,” she further explained.
Karthika also expressed gratitude to the coach, who helped her in the body transformation journey, and added that she has also learned to respect and love herself during the process.
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Meanwhile, Karthika Muralidharan has two movies to her credit – ‘Comrade in America’ and ‘Uncle’.